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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Thu Aug 27, 2015 3:14 pm

This is my idea for all three of us to keep in touch for now. It's less conspicuous looking than Facebook and Skype. So I thought it would be a good idea. This way Ashlee can avoid prying eyes, we can put together our train ticket plans, and we all have a place to talk. Smile
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Post by Kohi on Fri Aug 28, 2015 3:34 am

Most excellent. One thing I can't stop thinking about which I KNOW from experience with train tickets that is going to be a bitch so to speak; is the fact that once the date GETS here that you wanna purchase it the following day, the price will go up ridiculously. Unless you bought that date RIGHT now, that price will not be the same when that date gets here. Try an experiment and see the price of tomorrow's ticket, you will see what I am worried about.

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Post by Jin_Entonic on Fri Aug 28, 2015 10:14 pm

I haven't used one of these in so long. lol So how's it going er'body? xD
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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Sat Aug 29, 2015 1:12 am



The gang's all here.
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Post by Kohi on Sat Aug 29, 2015 6:54 am

You guys are so nerdy. lol. I love our group.

So Jin and Chris, word is the operation begins this coming Thursday? What's the word from your guys's ends?

Mine is just the packing operation, I have to move everything I own to a corner of a garage and then pack one back, is it 50LBS still Jin? Thursday will work best for food as well, by the way I shall be leaving the stamps in your protection during this operation Chris, since they cannot be used within another state.

(haha! I feel like I'm playing at a space station or something)

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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Sat Aug 29, 2015 9:55 am

You're a dork Kohi. Lol. Smile

There's been a couple road blocks in the operation here. So this Thursday may not be the day. Jin can explain it to you better than I can. But we are getting everything in order. Don't be hasty with the packing. It might give you away. Just sit tight. We're getting everything worked out. I promise.
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Post by Jin_Entonic on Sat Aug 29, 2015 10:13 am

*pushes up glasses* ....Here's the thing. I'm not positive the authority is on board, as she seemed to have a lot on her mind, I take it, and she's not being herself. However, I just need to make sure that it will be okay, and the boss doesn't do well with sudden movements without her involvement. That's not to say it won't be okay, but I can't just jump the gun, she's been acting a little off lately, and I'm concerned for her, so I need to handle this matter delicately and give her the scoop as much as I know, including your situation. I want this to go smoothly, but I think I may need a little more time, which would be good for all of us, since you can prepare and I can convince her. Don't worry, she's not a total bitch, she's just sick and hasn't been herself lately. So yeah, you can imagine how much this is stressing me out. I want it all to go smoothly, but I'm terrible with time constraints. Do you think you can hold out until I can get this all sorted out? It shouldn't take long, but I want to make this a sure thing, rather than up in the air. I'd love you see you again Kohi. I just want all of this to work out, because I'd like to give you a safe haven and even catch up with you.

Any questions? Can I stop this excruciating formality? Lol

Let's keep it casual. So yeah, you're probably gonna have a forum spammed by me. xD

As far as weight...who knows? They always change their policy. I'd say keep it under 40 lbs. and pack carefully. I'd say look up the cheapest dates Chris. Also, how about a round trip price? I don't want Kohi to get stranded here like last time, and I'm not sure if or when I'll get on that job. I don't want this to come back and bite us in the rear, and I want as little complications as possible, so pessimistic outcomes aside, let's focus on staying positive and keep our fingers crossed. Very Happy
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Post by Kohi on Sat Aug 29, 2015 10:29 am

Sounds good to me, honestly, the more time is a huge sigh of relief. I was getting all kinds of frantic in the rush of it all. Don't worry about me I have a slight routine that I have been forming on my own. A few days with my grandma, a few days with my Aunt and cousin's family. Sunday and Tuesday meetings and Friday and Saturday study alone for those meetings and a Bible Study with my favorite Aunt I hardly see on Mondays. So I can stick to my little routine until things are settled, as long as it takes. I'm glad there's something for me to look forward to even should it never happen to be honest. Thank you both for caring for my sanity so much to even bother. It means so very much to me. I am an Aries, but I CAN be patient lol. I love you both so much!! Jin I miss you and take your time. <3

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Post by Jin_Entonic on Sat Aug 29, 2015 10:45 am

Okay that's good, I can mull it over with the authority and all. I love you and miss you too dear. This is all great news, and I'm glad it makes you feel at ease. We're gonna do our best to make it happen. We've been talking about it and I'll keep in touch so we can make this happen at a pace we can all keep up with. We need to keep in mind that Chris, you'll need your money for things, so I'd suggest saving increments at a time so it won't be too big of a challenge to save an entire ticket fee.

I'm glad you got a little routine for now, Kohi. Aside from the isolation from reality, it sounds nice. At least you don't got a weirdo breathing down your neck. And we're gonna try to make this a reality, so just bare with this, but keep your hopes at a moderate level so you don't set yourself up for disappointment, should anything go awry. I don't mean to be the pessimist, but it's good to keep all aspects into perspective so we can know what to expect.

we're being choked out here. Too much fire smoke. As opposed to tireless smoke. And I'm tired, so every feeling is rather intense. I can handle it, but it's annoying. lol

Wow, my paragraph arrangement is just the worst! xD
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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Sat Aug 29, 2015 11:31 am

I love you too Kohi. And I miss you tons. I'm just ready for you to be out of there and in a place where you can be both completely safe and completely happy without sacrificing one for the other. I get a little over excited when it comes to helping people. Lol. I absorb emotions like a sponge and seeing someone who's close to me not being completely happy hurts. Plus I have a tendency to plan things out too much. And it's nice to have Jin helping me stay in perspective here because I have a tendency to jump the gun before all my ducks are in a row.

I think waiting a little longer will help. Cause I got $170 in my account right now and probably another $150 or more coming in my next check on the 10th, which was the original plan anyway. I'll save from each check. So I should have plenty for a round trip ticket. Are there round trip ticket options? One of you guys might have to help me with the Amtrak website and find that option cause I'm not seeing it. Lol. If there's not, I can always wire you money for the trip back. Or just buy it on the site. I don't think it matters where you buy from, as long as it has your name on it. You won't be stranded I promise. Plus I need to make sure I have a ride and a place for us to stay the night. Sam seems like he's got my back so I'm sure he'll do it.

I'm glad you have your routine down Kohi. I thought you were staying with one aunt the whole time. I didn't know it was multiple aunts. Lol. I'm glad we have this little forum so we can all stay in touch. I think it will help with this whole thing a lot. And it's just nice to have our own little private place to talk. Lol. You know you can customize the colors and everything? I'll leave that up to one of you guys since you're both admins now. Smile



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Post by Kohi on Sat Aug 29, 2015 1:30 pm

Believe it or not half my family is in this religion and half of it is not. I've actually come to find out that a lot that were in this religion are breaking from the family BECAUSE of this isolation from everyone around it. So it's a big controversy here.

I MISS MY FRIENDS SO MUCH. I miss drinking, I miss pot, I miss everything BUT the stress. Yes, it IS THE NICEST FEELING ever to not have a sociopath anywhere breathing down my neck and literally watching or listening to my every move. But its still happening in the form of religion, I'm really hating that these people, who would hate sociopaths are actually spying on each other for "God" by watching what everyone is doing. The only things they are allowed to do is watch TV (if its appropriate enough) read, video games are limited, as well as household activities. Its driving me nuts being spied on by them all, but like I said, its nothing compared to having sociopath's around. Which there is NONE. Its nice, but still not without its own price to be paid.

So anyways, I've been taking care of plants, picking blackberries, watching Big Bang theory, play my guitar, giong to the religions Meetings (get to wear dresses), and keeping up on the family gossip. My uncle has given me an Ebay job, I am posting different Vinyl records for him on Ebay. I am SO much slower than I used to be on the computer Jin. It's kinda sad. Everything is slower for me since surgery. I mean, totally noticeably to me. Sigh. I miss you both so much. Talking on Skype was HARMLESS in my opinion. I need to explain more to you guys whenever I get the chance but my mind is a little rattled right now being stared at by kids. They love me no matter what their ages. I'm finding out that snobby teenage girls don't like me very much though. lol. I'll elaborate on what I've been feeling for reals later on. Sorry for the rambling.

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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Sat Aug 29, 2015 2:47 pm

I kind of had a feeling that there were more people than your dad that had broken away from the family because of religious differences. I've seen it before. My friend TJ grew up a Jehovah's Witness and I met him when he was 10, shortly after his parents' divorce. And he told me even back then that it's a very isolationist religion and caused a lot of tension. I see no problem with having faith in God in any way that you see fit, but that level of elitism and exclusion of others is just not healthy for anyone's life.

I thought the whole NO SKYPE rule was ridiculous. I really don't see what harm it was doing either. I know they probably do this to everyone and not just me, Jin and Lizzie but it's hard for me to not take it personally. All three of us, with your ambition to get to a better place in life, have been here and helped you. All of us have loved you. All of us have given you someone to confide in and relate to when you were surrounded by predators. We are not "bad associations". The other two were there when you had to go through everything with Kevin and Ron and I was there when you were at JB's putting up with that shit. I'd say we're pretty good associations. And I even tried to reach out and learn about their religion cause I knew it was gonna be a part of your life and therefore part of my life and they do this. And they don't at all seem like bad people. They just sound brainwashed. They'd see that the world is full of light outside JUST their belief system if they'd open their eyes. Ugh. Now I'm ranting.

At least it's not sociopaths though. There's that to be thankful for. Creepy bastards. Lol.
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Post by Jin_Entonic on Sat Aug 29, 2015 7:26 pm

He's right, they're not bad people, it's just a very silly rule that they should just do away with, and I bet they'll thrive a little better. How can one claim to be a knight, when he's safe in his castle? lol I figured that your family was branched out. That's too bad, hopefully they'll see things clearly. There is no need to abandon the want to love God and his son.

Well all things considered, I guess we can look at it like a less intense version of stalking. I'm referring to the spying going on, of course. You've got the right attitude dear, just keep it up, and stay positive, for things will work out in our favor at some point. Just try to look at it like a loooong vacation from sociopathic people, and I don't have to stress, because I know you're fine overall, which is a load off of my mind.

Well I'm glad you have healthy hobbies. If a person can care for plants, they would most certainly be good around humans. That's the sign of a kind soul. Playing guitar is a good outlet as well. And I saw your mini performance with the Nirvana song, and I gotta say, I was pretty impressed! But anyway, don't feel sad about being slow on a computer, shiiii, I'm still slow at it, I never let that get me down. I'm slow at a lot of things, and nothing is wrong with me. lol So don't feel sad, at least you can still comprehend it all, which is more important anyway. Smile

And I don't mind the rambling. I guarantee you that once you've gotten a good nights rest, you'll feel better since you let your feelings known. You're not alone dear. We're here for you and we'll talk with you and help you get through this. The rambling and ranting can be good for you, that way it doesn't build into something that leads to more eventful happenings, if you know what I mean.

Just stay doing what you're doing, and keep at it, there will be reward in it. And you know what? Despite all of this, I am very proud of you! You've done very well up to this point. I know it probably gets testy (oh hoh hoh!!) at times, but now you'll have us until we can figure out how we're gonna set everything up. But one day at a time, so let's not stress over things, but focus on what can be done now, and what we can do to achieve our goals.

Anyway, thanks for sharing, dear. I think this can be a nice little outlet for you as well as a place to connect with the outside world. This is a very nice thing you're doing for her....umm...Balor? Lol anyway, yes thanks for this, this will prove to be a useful too for the time being. Very Happy

So cheer up Kohi, we'll stay in contact with you through here and try our best to give you some balance in your life. Smile we love you very much and want you to be happy. So just do your best to stay positive for us, positive reinforcement is going to help in the long run. And keep learning on the guitar, you're getting really good! Consider that the trade off for doing things slower, that you're building on your talents, which is priceless and more useful for your soul. Smile
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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Sat Aug 29, 2015 8:37 pm

Yes, Balor is my new name. Finn Balor is a wrestler who just wrestles as himself until someone gets him REALLY mad and then he paints himself up and calls himself "Demon Balor" because wrestling is a very silly thing. Lol.

I am proud of you too for your guitar progress Kohi. You're getting so great at it. We should do your band idea when we can see each other again. Smile I still want to help you with your stage show/concert idea. That could be like our long term creative project. We could make the stage sets and everything a little bit at a time.

I'm happy you have things to keep your mind occupied. Cause trust me, sitting and stressing with no outlet is the worst thing you can do. You should get seeds of your favorite flower, plant them in a pot and tend to it during the fall so you have something beautiful to take care of all year round. Smile Are you still watching Vampire Diaries and Sons of Anarchy on Netflix too? I'm only a few episodes from finishing Sons of Anarchy and it's been AMAZING. One of the best shows I've ever seen. You'll fall in love with it when it really gets going. And how has your vinyl job been going? Have you sold any yet? Sorry for question overload jamming your systems. Lol. :p

I love you lots and Jin does too. We're gonna keep working on this. Keep your head up. We'll keep our heads up for you. You mean the world to us both. We're all being given a chance to grow from a tough situation. And that is truly a blessing. You just got to cherish the little blessings in life along with the big ones. You are a blessing to me. And I'll always be here when you need me. Both of us will. Smile




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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Sun Aug 30, 2015 4:44 pm

Hey guys. I talked to Lizzie about our plan and she misses Kohi and she wants to help too. So I gave her the link to the forum. It will just be us four and no one else.
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Post by Kohi on Mon Aug 31, 2015 10:48 pm

Captain's Log: HAHA!

Cool update on Lizzie. Nice nickname Balor, and I'd like to apologize to Jin for the little incident.

Just got home from ALL DAY LONG at the fair!! Rode rides! Had A LOT of fun!! I spent some money on some kids, and got 2 presents. A pretty pair of star earrings, a stuffed dog, and got to hear some live bands and got a pick from Ty Curtis!! He was alright lol.

I know this will probably upset you Balor, but I'd like to place an even slower delay on everything. Even if Jin could convince his authorities to allow myself a visit of a round trip, I'd like to say no for now. Because I am so sure I can pick myself up and get on my feet while being here with these people.

About a week ago I had a HORRIBLE tooth ache and had to go to the ER and they could only prescribe me anti-biotics and pain meds. I had a dentist appt a few days after that and they wouldnt do anything for me because my insurance had gotten mixed up or something. So my Aunt with the family of kids set me up with an emergency dentist and they pulled it for me. The point of this story is that I had gotten VERY upset and had given up after that failed appointment where they wouldn't see me because of my insurance.

I can't grow up without being raised, and collectively these women are trying their best to do just what my mother refused to do for me. I cannot and will not throw that away -- forgive me for saying this Jin -- even to see him. That would be very foolish at this point, to leave them suddenly with just a note, and go back to what would be literally back to nothing. I haven't had this kind of a chance to grow up and I cannot just toss it aside even though I do want to see Jin very much, I am safe. There is No one hurting me, or messing with my mind. I am bored and gaining some weight, but at the same time, I am finally without stress you guys.

Mostly I want to see how this housing thing turns out before I just leave. I think it will take a total of about 3-6 months, and its been about 2. Please try to understand you guys. THIS IS HELPING!! This forum is the sheeze nit lol. Please put in all your input. I need to hear all thoughts good or bad. Vent away, just keep in mind that I love you all very much~~

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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Tue Sep 01, 2015 1:04 am

I've been sitting here for about an hour after talking to you and just thinking about what to say. Cause I just needed to analyze it.

I don't really know what word to use but I guess upset could be one. But not really as in mad that you changed your mind. More like just sad cause this means it'll be even longer than I thought. Maybe it's kind of selfish of me, but I just miss you a lot. It hurts. It hurts to have no idea when I'll see you again. To have no idea when we'll be able to laugh together and explore nature and talk for hours.. I can't even see your face on Skype and that kills me. And I take the way your family are looking down on the three of us VERY fucking personally. And I know I'm not the only one. We're good people and we love you. Just because we don't follow their religion is no proof otherwise. And that makes me extremely angry. Cause this wouldn't even be a problem if it weren't for their judgmental attitude towards people. This whole thing has just made me even more distrustful and deepened my grudge against organized religion.

I am proud of you though for doing what you feel is best for you. I think it would be amazing for you to get on housing and finally have a place of your own without relying on anyone else for a home. I have faith in you to make your own way in life Ashlee. But just remember that we are here for you too. It's not just them. If you ever need anywhere to go, we're here.

If you feel comfortable staying there, I will understand and support you as best as I can. I'll try to be patient and swallow how much I miss you and swallow my rage at them for calling us bad influences.

You do what you need to do and I will too. I'm still going to get out of here and look for a place, whether we do this plan or not. I hate it here and I want out. Before my sanity slips away. And I want you and all my other friends to be able to rely on me because they can trust me to do that. Not cause they have to.

You're one of my best friends Ashlee. I love you. Never forget who you are. Cause I won't. Life will bring us back together when fate sees fit. This forum will have to do for now, even if it does no justice like seeing you in person does.


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Post by lizziemarie on Tue Sep 01, 2015 1:17 am

HIIIIII. its Lizzie officially, joined. now the WHOLE gang is here.
Don't have much to say soooooo ima, just leave it at this ha. thought id let you know, ashlee that I am here.
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Memories.

Post by lizziemarie on Tue Sep 01, 2015 1:26 am



Ashlee remember this or what?!
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Post by Kohi on Tue Sep 01, 2015 8:38 am

Hi Lizzie!!!!!
Ew. I hate that picture of me lol!!!! You're adorable Liz. Thank you for being here!


Balor and Liz, I would prefer everyone to stick to calling me Kohi on the forums please. I don't do real names on these things lol. I am Kohi or Kohanna on the forums its just respectful.

And BALOR, I do understand your feelings on everything you have valid feelings, and every right to feel them. Just be strong and stay calm. Train yourself to have patience, I had to do this and it takes every moment at some times lol. Not easy. Also I'd really like it if we could stick to group talk, I don't have a lot of time to be private messaging anyone whenever I do get a chance to get on here. I know I explained to you that my mind is a lot stronger than you all worry about lol. I can't say I don't blame you guys for worrying though, this is a delicate subject matter for a lot of people.


As for you Jin, I wrote a new song for missing all of my friends that I think you will enjoy. I think you were right when you said my music is a lot like Radiohead. It's just girly lol. I am going to make a new video of it whenever I am at the other Aunts house. You guys been seeing my facebook pictures? I miss you all. Thank you all for being here and being encouraging, and hey! PLEASE feel free to vent on here about your own situations too. I wanna help you guys if I can as well.

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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Tue Sep 01, 2015 10:21 am

I wish I could grow an epic beard like Hugo but my follicles refuse to cooperate lol.

And okay. We'll keep calling you Kohi or Kohanna. Feel free to call me either Balor or Mugen. Cause there can't be a Jin with no Mugen lol. Jin, I just now got the wordplay on your screen name. I'm a little slow on the uptake.

I hoped you would understand cause I am a still pretty upset about the whole situation. Not at you but at people judging me as if they know me. But I'm trying to have patience. It's not something I have ever had much of so this is part of my path to growing up. But it's part of your path to the same thing too so I have to respect that.

I'm signing up for a temp agency soon. Everyone is telling me I need to learn to drive first before moving out, but I'm hesitant because that means having to rely on my mom for yet another thing. I wish Aaron would just move here already to teach me. Anyone but her. She always has an excuse as to why she can't do it. I'll take the damn bus everywhere if I have to. I'm so sick of her trying to discourage me from doing what I have to do to get out of here. She has started making me pay my own $57 cell phone bill every month. Which effectively robs me of half my money every month. And it's not that I hate the responsibility. It's that she has payed my phone bill since I got my first cell phone. And now so conveniently, as soon as I start saving to get out, I have to pay it. Despite the fact that she just got a raise at work. I even talked to Fred about all this and he thought it was bullshit. He said she is overbearing and needs to let go and let me grow up. She keeps talking about "I'll get you a car when I get my taxes back." But I'm not waiting for her. My goal is to be out by the end of this year. I'm done letting her control my life.

Anyway, I'm excited to hear your song. Smile I love your music. I try to see your facebook pictures but I have to log into Mugen to do it cause your aunt Pam has me blocked on my regular one. We seriously keep JUST missing each other. The fair yesterday and I almost went to powwow with Tessa. But I guess maybe that's happening for some sort of reason. Cause I don't know how your family would react to us seeing each other.

I miss you Kohi.

P.S. I'm making a song sharing thread. We have this whole big forum and only one topic. Lol.
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Post by lizziemarie on Tue Sep 01, 2015 12:01 pm

Why would you hate that picture of yourself, its fucking awesome just saying! that night was SO MUCH FUN. I miss it. Hugo, was hilarious haha

Kohi, sounds like a deal lol. You can call me whatever the fuck you want haha because I really don't care lol. I had my last day at work sat night and it was so much harder than I thought I cried to the residents it was bond to happen though.. I don't know if I made the wrong choice or not.. But on the bright side I will be getting paid more at my new job which I start the 5th. so I get this little mini vacation!
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Post by Jin_Entonic on Tue Sep 01, 2015 12:46 pm

Oh sorry I don't post much, but my real life friends but me, especially one who just can't get over his girl dumping him, so he's getting over her by...well, bothering me. Lol But it's all good, of course I'm willing to help the guy get over it, and Kohi has taught me a lot when it comes to how to handle situations as well as dealing with the loss of a girlfriend, but gaining a very valuable friend.

I'm glad you had a nice time at the fair Kohi. You need to take a step back and realize that it's all good for you, and you will benefit from this and you'll look back on it and be glad it happened the way it did. I know how much you miss talking to me, but you know I'm always gonna be cheering for you in the corner, and when the time comes you get a chance to see me, you're allowed to take it, assuming that you'll be able to do so with little to no problems.

Yeah mom shows them to me once in a while. You look a little sad in your photos, even when you're smiling. You need to make it so that you can smile, even knowing your situations. "Laugh in the face of death." is a favorite quote of mine, because in my life, death is a regular thing. It happens. We can't stop it, but we can overcome the fear. As cheesy as that sounds, you'll come to cherish those words when hard times come. Hopefully no time soon. But hey, one day you'll be strong mentally and you can help others in this manner. I have a lot of faith in you kid, and I know you're not going to disappoint me, because I know you have it in you and you can do this! Make me, no, make us proud Kohi!

Ah hey Lizzie, that pic looks like fun! I miss those days when I used to party and everyone was being stupid and laughing and having a good time! I remember this one time, I was at a really cool dudes house, and the fucking fridge was filled with nothing but 40s and two cubes! A fucking party fridge! xD Anyway I got a 40 that cracked my bone by my eye, by none other than my friend, who didn't mean to, but it was a fun night. I had to tell everyone to settle down, because they wanted to jump my friend for doing that, but I told them it wasn't deliberate. Because if it were, I'd have jumped on him and gave him the ol' 1, 2 see. I grabbed a clean white shirt out of the dudes second living room, and put it on my eye, and I shit you not, that white shirt was entirely red by the end of that night! We were all laughing and having a good time, we started arm wrestling and I beat every fucking one except for this one big burly native dude, you know, the kind of big Indian you see in westerns? Yeah, I had beaten 3 other dudes, 2 others didn't want to, but he was all quiet like and then he even had this fucking poker face, and I couldn't help but laugh, and I think I pissed him off and he slammed my arm to the table, and im still laughing, but I had enough sense to go outside and take a piss before the dude decided to drop me. lol Later that night I blanked out, and came to, I was underneath my grandmas RV, almost hit my head. Oh boy did I ever have fun explaining that to my mom. I was 16 at the time...lol But yes, still had fun. So many other nights, and I've been in a lot of wrecks. Those are not fun yo, you always see this shit go by slowly, when in fact, it happens in the blink of an eye. It's like your mind goes all fucking Zack Snyder on you as your car goes spinning out of control! xD If you don't know who that it, it's the dude who directed 300 and a lot of other cool movies with the slow-mo effect.

Shit...trailed off there. But Balor finally noticed my play on words there huh. Lol I do random shit like this all the time, especially when I get hyper, which isn't s lot, but I'd like to think that when I'm hyper, that's who I truly am. Joking around, teasing people, making people laugh. I mean shit, when I'm by myself, I talk to myself or when I'm playing a game, I get so into that stupid shit that I'm being that person and doing funny shit. Kohi knows what I mean, she always used to get the giggles whenever she'd watch me get pissed at a game. Not raging pissed, but going off on a rant pissed. xD The whole song link thing is a great idea. We can fucking show one another songs and get introduced to new bands from one another and crap. But too bad tablets are somewhat limited, especially in the motherfucking ram. Still, great idea!

I'm very pleased that everyone is here for Kohi! Thanks for your support guys! This will help all of us in a way, I mean, I feel more laid back and reassured knowing that Kohi can communicate to us in a way. At this point, would have taken fucking morse code just to be in contact. lol so yes, in the days to come, I hope this entire forum gets filled to like 15 pages n shit. Spam the fuck out of it, even with rants and shit! I encourage it! Shit, I'm doing it right now. xD

Shit, I was only gonna come in here to be brief and say hi, I ended up writing a short fucking novels worth of words! Fuck...lol
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Post by Demon_Prince_Balor on Thu Sep 03, 2015 2:22 pm

Kohi. I thought a lot about this whole situation and you saying you need to stay there last night. And I feel I need to open up completely about this situation and my feelings on it.

I honestly wish there was a better place for you than JB's that you could stay before Jin's. I wish you could just stay here at my house. But I wish you were nowhere near where you are right now. Maybe those people there are willing to help you right now Kohi, but they DON'T LOVE YOU. They love the idea of what they want to mold you into. They don't love you as you are. If they loved you, they would respect your rights to talk to your friends. If they loved you, they would let you be yourself. They would accept you for every horrible little detail like me and Lizzie and Jin do. Cause if they truly loved you, they would be able to see under your mistakes and under your problems to see the light shining in you. If they truly loved you, it would be clear as day to them.

You have to hide who you are to keep a home. You have to hide YOUR FRIENDS to keep a home. And a place where you have to do that is not a home. You have other places where you can actually be yourself. JB is a dickhead sociopath, but he's willing to take you in for a while. Jin is willing to take you in. I am willing to take you in once I get a place. I even talked to my mom the other day and she said she was willing to mend fences and let you come back over to spend the night if things work out okay. Those people you're living with want you to change yourself cause they don't accept the real you. They want to control your life. They want you to live up to their standard to be "worthy" of them. When in reality they don't know what worthiness is. They want to try to brainwash and contain you to live their narrow path. There are so many paths to God. Not just theirs. Sin is not a "bad deed". The definition of sin is separation from God. And you have no separation from God. He talks to you more than he talks to anyone else I know.

Maybe the Jehovah's Witness way has some good things about it, but it has its faults too. Just like every branch of every religion has its faults. There is no one path to God. There are many. And those people in that church and in your family are just as flawed as the rest of us, albeit in different ways. But they should be banding together to help those in need. Not casting them out as "bad associations". You can grow up without them. They are making themselves your lifeline and feeding tube to a better life because that's another way of creating dependence and control. Other people will help you, Kohi. When I get things on track, I will do everything I can to help you get things on track. I'll take you to talk to someone about getting on disability. I'll find some way to set you up with some income. I'll even find a way to get your son rides to come see you. I'll help get you on the path to true independence. All that without expecting your adherence to rules and you to sacrifice who you are. Just because I care about you.

I want you to please consider these words and think about your next steps. Cause I still haven't told JB you're not coming on Monday just in case you change your mind between now and then. Like I said, he's an ass. It's not perfect there. It has it's drawbacks and faults. But it's a place to stay where you can be yourself a lot more than you can where you are right now. And it'll only be a little while before you can go see Jin again. I'm afraid if you don't go on monday, JB will entirely take the offer off the table, permanently. Cause I know his type well enough to know that he could very possibly do that.

I get that you are hesitant to leave. You have a shelter there for now and you are trying to get settled down. And I know you're sick of the constant moving. I understand. You need a consistent place to rest your head and call a home. But that place you're in is not that place at all. Cause they are holding kicking you out over your head for even TALKING to us. And I know you. The pressure is building in you right now. I could tell that just by how depressed you were yesterday. And you have no release valve cause they won't even let you talk to the three of us when you need to. That's not a safe place Kohi. You can only hold back who you are for so long before you say "THAT'S IT!" and they kick you out anyway. Cause when they see the real you, they won't like it. And they won't accept the real you.

So please, think it over. Please consider going through with the plan of getting out and going to JB's on Monday. It will only be for a little while. I know Jin is still working on getting you there to Montana. And I promise I will get you there. Things will work out okay. But my heart and my gut both tell me that it will only end in disaster if you stay where you are now. I promise you that I will get you to Jin and we will both make sure you have a place where you can be both stress free, but where you can also be yourself and do what you want without the fear of judgment.

Whatever path you choose, I will stick by you and support you no matter what. Even if I feel you have made a mistake, it's your decision to make and I'll be there to pick you up and dust you off if you trip and fall. And I'm not too prideful to admit, there's always a possibility that I'm the one who is wrong about this. These are all just my beliefs on this situation and I stand by them. If you feel that you know what you are doing by staying there, I will respect and trust that decision. But I am confident that this plan to get you out of there will work and you will be happier for it. So please consider it. I miss your laugh and your smile so much. And that's all I want is your happiness no matter what. We're right here in your corner Kohi. I love you very much. We all do. We may not be your blood family, but we love you like our family. And you have a home with us. We'll always make sure of that.
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Post by Kohi on Fri Sep 04, 2015 3:28 pm

I officially don't know what to do anymore. Jin, I'm leaving this with the decision of your mother. If she says yes, I'll come, if she says no, I'm going to stay.

I'm sorry i'm too depressed to elaborate any farther

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